I had an entire post written for today. I wrote it yesterday afternoon. It was a bummer. When I re-read it this morning as I was about to post to my blog, I decided to abandon that bummer post. It was born of worries concerning Angel and what should have been a “routine” event – sending Tuna and Storm back to the shelter. These are the kinds of things I accept as being part of the Life I’ve chosen. But occasionally, an emotional low is ignited. That happened yesterday. And I did what I always do – I sat down and started writing. I know I’ve shared with you, over the years, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the happy and the sad. So today would have been one of those posts that expressed a low. It was when I was reading back through it that I decided Nope. There’s nothing insurmountable here. Sometimes the animals in my care are healthy. Sometimes they are not. Sometimes the animals in my care are happy. Sometimes they are not. My heart will always break when I witness an animal in pain, or sick, or scared. But this IS what I do.
So today, in an attempt to re-set, I’m focusing on the positives. Tuna and Storm were very very sad when I shipped them off yesterday morning. They have been hiding in their enclosure since arriving at the shelter. For me, this is hard to take. I tried and tried to get them into homes of their own straight from here. I could no longer foster them as Sammi needs to move into that room on an off-and-on basis for a while. We have to see if this lowers her stress enough to help with the recurrent UTI’s (which appear to be directly related to the stress in her life). Of course, Tuna and Storm were never meant to be here for this long anyway. So here is the positive - They WILL adjust at the shelter. And I will continue to hope that they will be Chosen for their very own forever homes. Angel is no better off at this moment than she was before the surgery. But here is the positive – we ruled some things out (as many of you said) and we are on the second day of some brand new medications. I will hope that this might be our answer. Another bummer is that I’ve had only two adoptions, giving me only two openings, with Kitten Season almost upon us. (And they’re saying – because of the mild Winter – it could be a record Kitten Season.) The positive? I will take in the TWO cats or kittens that I have room for, and hope that no others cross my path. And I will hope for more adoptions.
You never know what’s down the road and around the corner. This combination of medications might do the trick for Angel. Tuna and Storm might still get homes. Winnie’s Wish might still get some adoptions. And maybe only a couple of felines will cross my path this year . . . (ha, unlikely, but we can hope.)
Yes, there are highs and lows, ups and downs, in this work. There will always be a bucketful of emotions to contend with. But I can focus on the hopes and not on the worries. And I have Friends like you who let me ramble and express and dream. You love animals. You experience all the same feelings that I do – we are alike that way. So I know you understand. With hope, and if you’ll keep your fingers crossed, something really good could be just around the corner.
See you tomorrow.